I don't know why,but something always happens to me! I mean really God,really? I pray like every damn day! Go to school! But no,eveything happens to me!!! This time..

I'm sick.. Not like the flu. Or fever. But sick,like bipolar! God jesus! I mean,me! You have no idea how it feels to have your family look at you like your different. They all treat me different too! Even my friends. The people I thought wouldn't care! It's not like I'm crazy,(well kinda,but STILL!) And now I take medicine. Which is gonna help me how? I don't know.. ANd my momwants me to get a therapist,thinking I'm gonna cut myself,which I've done.. But,yeah.. Anyway! I wrote this to vent my anger out.. So you don't have to read it I don't really know what to do.. It's so hard to try and…

3 months earlier

"Oh Chad," I giggled as he kissed my neck.

"What?" he asked innocently, making his eyes real big.

I just smiled at him. "You know that kissing there makes me really ticklish."

"Really?" he questioned in a low voice. He smirked at me. "I had no idea.

I hit him in the shoulder and Chad just laughed, holding me tighter against him and kissed my cheek.

I sighed in contentment. "We should do this more often."

"Making out...well we already do that enough."

I rolled my eyes, ignoring his interrupting. "I meant chilling in the back seat of your new truck. It's pretty comfy."

"I know," agreed Chad. "And it was only $990, brand new."

"Yes," I agreed. "A 2009 GMC Sierra 3500HD with air conditioning, single-zone manual…

I JUST broke up with my girlfriend (Yes Im a girl for those of you who are not my friend and didnt know). I feel like my fuckin (sorry for those who hate curseing >.<) world is crashing down on me and IM the one who did it! I feel like shit and I dont wanna go out of my room. I mean i hate it even tho inside i feel it was kinda a good thing tho i also feel it wasnt.

I want to curl up and eat ice cream or stay hidden. But is it so bad that im hurting cuz we had to keep are dateing secret cuz her mom is a homophobic control freak. And well half my family think im one.

I know some out there wont care about…

Well lets see, today...one of my best friends that is a guy, is mad at me for some reason...and i don't know why, but it makes me sad...he never ever gets mad at me! He said that I made him sad...and now i feel bad, but the problem is I have no idea why!?!

I was sipping on a Whiskey when I got the call
Yeah my friend Lex was lying in the hospital
She'd been pretty sick for about half a year
But it seems liked this time the end was drawing near
So dropped my plans and jumped the next London train
I found her laid up and in a lot of pain
Her eyes met mine and then I understood
That her weather forecast wasn't looking too good
So I sat and spun her stories for a little while
Tried to raise her mood and tried to raise a smile
But she silenced all my rambling with a shake of her head
Drew me close and listen this is what she said now

"You'll live to dance another day, it's just now you'll have to dance, for the two of us, so stop looking so damn depressed and sing with…

There are some things that i just cant seem to put my finger on; like why things that should make me feel great really make me feel worse than ever.  Why change is the most inevitable, sought after thing that there can possibly be, but in the end no one really wants it.  I've lived here in this place that doesn't ever move while everything i love and even those i don't become everything i'd never hav imagined.  Jealous of everything and wanting nothing to do with the fact that i need everything i don't want to need.  confusing i kno, believe me.... Theres no room for greats because the greats hav all had their time to be everything everyone expected.  Everythings been done and if theres something u need to say i can damn well bet its been said already, and probably better than u can even think to say…

This is the sequel to my You Promised Me the World One Shot. Enjoy! :D And for all of those who are waiting I will update Willow000's story My Only Hope soon. We miss you Willow!

Warning: This one really nearly made me cry.

(Josh)

She said, "You're just a letdown
Another one of my mistakes
I never loved you anyway
I never did, and I never will"
She said, "You're just a letdown
All your friends, they feel the same
I never loved you anyway
I never did, and I never will

"Hey mom?" As I walked into my hotel door then she ran up to me and hugged me. I laughed and said,"Gees couldn't this have waited until I got back?" She said,"No but…

I was laughing mildly as my brother sang along loudly with the radio. The sun was hot against my skin, even as the rays of light traveled through the tinted window. Trees whirled past the car as we drove down the freeway. I rested my head against my hand which was leaned up on the arm rest.

I sang along to the radio under my breath. I never let anyone hear me sing. My voice was my own. As I sang softly, I stared out the window, thinking about people, particularly two of them. I thought of my best friend, Kitiara, and what she was doing in her home across the country. I thought about Dusty, the guy I was insanely attracted to. Judging by the time, he was already at work in Quizno's. I wondered if he was bored.

We pulled off the freeway into the town of Vancouver, Washington. I…

um um um... idk. lol  I should be getting dressed now. my bf will be here in an hour. lol. ah well. I have a whole hour yet. =)
noone is ever going to read this so I dont really know why im bothering. guess I just miss writing in my diary. I should start that again.
My brand new scales arrived today! they are awesome! My weight is now 60.8kilos, bout 9st and a half. fukin brilliant! Wont be long till im in those size 10 jeans. =D

Ive not been to the gym in a while. will have to go this week. and keep it up. otherwise I will never get into them size 10s. And I refuse to carry on being fat.

I think its a little strange that I look at myself in the mirror and I dont think I look any different from…

Atm i am sad becuase my friends have ditched me

a number of times,, ITS NOT FAIR,

If I wanted I could just be all cool and popular but noo

The only reason they hate me is because I told them

that they were being mean,, but then they deceided to be betches lol

AND i am also sad becuase i found the best nike shoes but then they dont have size 6s

SO life is seriously NOT FAIR,

also i have an assignment due and i haven't done it so E here i…

OK, I swear I'm going to get better at this. Blame me missing this on Jared Leto. You can do it! I'm doing it now. Anyway, we'll have a new photo assignment later this afternoon, but I wanted to share with you the AWESOME results we got this week for our assignment, "Happy/Sad." See how your fellow peers interpreted another edition of our contrast series.

Full results to this week's photo assignment inside...

So...

Friday night, I was doing the usual, making music, IM-ing friends, when all of a sudden my Computer screen goes blank.

I try to restart the computer, but it won't let me. I unplug it and go to bed. Next morning, I try to turn it on, it starts up, but will not load windows.

A few more trys, still nothing.

I get angry and unplug it for the rest of the day. I come back in the evening and try to start it up. This time, it tells me that it can't read my drivers. FML

I run to my brothers room, and ask to move his computer to the living…

On the surface, this might seem like the simplest photo assignment we've done yet, but I think it'll prove to be much more difficult when you think about it. This week, we're going to examine two contrasting human emotions: happiness and sadness. What makes you feel either? Bust out those cameras and get to snapping photos!

Full instructions for this week's photo assignment inside...